hello sunshine,
here are my thoughts from few days back.
in my personal relationships — with partners, family, friends, co-workers — i have noticed how we diminish ourselves. silence our truth. lock away our vulnerabilities. and skip the uncomfortable play of honesty.
that’s what my previous weeks of miscommunication have brought to my attention.
seems to me, that we’re afraid of what others might feel, think, say or do.
in moments like these, we tend to put others first in line while denying ourselves. to me it’s not self-love. its selfless to share your deepest truth. no hiding. showing yourself in all colors. if its not well-received, maybe its life’s way of saying, you’re meant to go separate ways, for now or forever.
i invite you to feel why’s of worry from a real source of mine:
- i don’t want to be an obstacle to you.
- i don’t want my negative emotions and thoughts to be a burden.
- i don’t want you to feel like you’re acting against me when following your soul’s desires.
- i don’t want to show you the depth of my suffering and enduring that our current state of relationship is to me.
- i want to share these feelings with you even though i’m afraid of what you might think and feel, and i’d prefer to be in a situation where I wouldn’t be feeling this in the first place.
those were words once said to me.
life provided us opportunities to share our truth. we skipped the first round. then the second. and the third. once tension bubbled up we begun to face ourfears. we said words hard to express in hopes that our honesty will be safe in the presence of another.
in the aftermath, our lives were torn apart but truth had set us free. and we, as individuals, became better.
what if speaking your truth brings you the hidden treasures of your heart?
when i allow it to sink in, i am washed with relaxation. bit afraid but courageous.
things have rarely ever gone the way i have envisioned. its not that my vision is broken. its merely a sign that i am meant to experience life in other ways.
lets dig it…
what if speaking your truth speeds things up?
what if speaking your truth equals
less detours?what if speaking your truth removes obstacles and distractions?
what if speaking your truth helps you and others in their healing journey ahead?
what if speaking your truth only hurts you and others so you can open yourselves up?
what if speaking your truth with honesty leading the way is the only and real spiritual teaching?
when your innocence is received with openness, its much easier to share.
stories say, truth hurts. and your life as it is might flip — which way, no one knows.
do what you feel like doing. stay silent or speak up. or maybe do both and everything in between. see what works best for you.
to me, life with honesty is nothing less than a paradise of endless gifts. responses that i received are rarely what i wanted but always what i needed.
so today, i will leave you with this…
maybe being selfless is actually selfish because you hold healing from yourself and others what only your truth can bring forth?
do you, be you—unapologetically,
—elsa
quote of the week, “the cave you fear to enter holds the treasure you seek.”