its okay to cry.
its okay to feel fully.
its okay to speak up.
its okay to walk away.
its okay to be vulnerable.
its okay to want to be alone.
its okay to not answer a call.
its okay to change your mind.
its okay to retreat from your life.
its okay to love the beautiful you.
hell yeah, its okay to do what the world has conditioned us not to do.
its as if saying to the world, “thank you. i tried this and that but it didn’t work. so i am now taking a courageous step, and by doing so, i’ll try something new even though it scares the shit out of me. but i am willing to face my new reality.”
to bring it home, i’ll share a poem i wrote in january 14, 2018.
what comes comes anyways.
why ‘what’ comes is what I need.
when ‘why’ comes is divinely timed in me.i have to become aware of it, to feel it.
i have to feel it, to transform it.
i have to transform it, to be it.
and i will survived it, to live it.
well, i don’t particularly have to do anything — become aware of it, feel it, transform it, be it, survive it, live it — in order to be a miracle walking on this earth. but from a personal experience i can tell, by doing this, tough times have become easier, and my greatest tragedies have transformed into my greatest gifts.
still, what works for me might not work for you.
but whatever you do. whatever seems to work for you. do it on your time with your rules.
gradually, over time, i have learned to honor and respect the subtle voice inside. and whenever i feel relaxed, i know i am moving with the pace of my heart. so maybe, find your pace. there’s no slow or fast in that reality. its just a never-ending process of an angle waking up into form.
also, allow me to add.
when i feel pressured by myself, by others, by the world, i stop and take a breath with words of relaxation aimed at my heart,
i love you elsa. please help me. i can’t do this without you. i need your help. and i am so sorry that i have ever abandoned you. that i have made everything else more important than you. i am so sorry. please forgive me. i am here now, and i will listen to you. we will walk this path together. you and me. we can do this.”
i then listen, breathe, and feel.
peace,
—elsa
quote of the week, “by admitting to yourself, ‘i don’t know how to love,’ is the first step towards loving yourself.”